Developing self confidence with the aim of stabilizing our inner sense of peace, is a flawed strategy.

A more powerful and enduring endeavor is to focus our attention on self realization – discovering the Truth of who we really are.

A byproduct of realizing our true infinite nature is confidence.

While it is certainly healthy and helpful to believe in yourself, a deeper exploration reveals that the “self” in which one endeavors to believe doesn’t actually exist, except as a collection of thoughts and beliefs. Thoughts and beliefs are ephemeral, they come and go, they are transient.

What we’re really after isn’t actually confidence, it is TRUST. We are looking for something in which we can trust. Looking to the conditioned and mind constructed self as a stable place to put our trust is an inherently unstable strategy.

What we are looking for is an eternal truth into which we can surrender, let go and simply BE. This feeling of angst that spurs a search for confidence is the nagging feeling of our soul desiring to be free of the illusion of self and reunited with the truth of our eternal nature.

Self doubt is natural and healthy.

Typically the self that we are doubting is the story of self
that we’ve constructed in our own mind.

That constructed self very well should be doubted.

Awaken the true self that is beyond doubt.

To work on self confidence while neglecting the explorations into the true core nature of our being only prolongs our seeking. Go straight to what truly brings peace – Realizing your Truth.

What we find when we stop trying to bolster the illusion of self and we begin to inquire honestly into the true nature of who we really are, before all thought and all constructs of self, is not a “thing”. We find the pure, infinite and eternal “IS-ness” of the life force that breaths us all into existence. And there, we find a sweet and abiding trust.

When we surrender the illusion of a self that needs to control and manipulate the world to generate and maintain a feeling of self-confidence, we find a natural, infinite and unshakable TRUST.

Ultimately the invitation here is not to strengthen your belief in your story of self, but to know and embody the eternal truth of who you truly are beyond the illusion of self.

Within that knowing one discovers their already present, natural and unshakeable confidence and one gains access to a universe of possibilities.

Your Soul is a Temple of Grace

Your Soul is a Temple of Grace

Your Soul is a Temple of Grace

When you step into the courtyard of a temple or a beautiful sanctuary, you are transformed. A great peace descends upon you.

You cross a threshold from the mundane into the sacred.

You enter a place of intentional and conscious presence, love, peace and devotion.

And in that short crossing of a threshold your entire world is, if even for just a few moments, transformed.

When you step into the temple and majesty of nature, a vast grace sweeps through you & washes away your worldly concerns.

We go to the temple of nature to return to God, to surrender to grace, to commune with love.

The same is true when you rest in the stillness of your own heart, through which you may step into the embrace of your own divinity.

Your own soul is the temple, the sanctuary and the nature of infinite peace, love and grace.

It’s so close, so immediately available, so unwaveringly present.

But we must choose to enter our own sacred truth. We must seek out those who may help us make that short yet epic journey into our own grace.  Most pass right by that entrance to their own sanctuary. They are seeking what is within, but they seek outside of themselves.

It is often a matter of simply turning away from the noise of the mind’s perceptions and turning instead toward the stillness. It is a matter of choosing in what direction you place your next step, and then the next.

The temple of infinite love is always only a step, a breath, a choice away.

We need only to turn gently within the stillness to meet ourself, the true self that is patiently waiting and always holding open the invitation for us to enter our divine grace.

Ten Day Dark Room Retreat Practicalities

Ten Day Dark Room Retreat Practicalities

Ten Day Dark Room Retreat Practicalities

As many of you know, back in May I entered into a 10 day and 11 night dark room retreat.

I have another blog that shares more about the transformative and life changing experience of living in the dark for 10 days, but I want to start with this blog about the practicalities of what a dark room retreat is like.

Above you will find a Facebook Live video that delves into the “how” of a dark room retreat.  It was my first FB Live video and we had some technical hiccups that are just par for the course.  So, I’d recommend starting there to hear about the experience as it gives a raw and heartfelt accounting.

But some have said that the technical glitches made it hard for them to stay with the content, so I created a cleaned up video that answers all of the same questions, just in a less distracting way.  That video is below.

I’ve found that these more practical questions often need to be answered before many people can take in the deeper spiritual transformations that I experienced.  Literally I’ll be describing to someone the deepest insights from the retreat and they will still be trying to grok the physical reality of spending that much time in the dark.  So, this blog and video should answer a lot of questions and alleviate that tension.

Here are the main questions that I get asked about the practicalities of this incredible experience.  Next week I’ll be posting another video and blog that goes into the whole transformative experience.

Q: Where did you do this dark room retreat?

A: I went with the dark room at The Hermitage Retreat Center in Guatemala on Lake Atitlan.

Q: What was the room like?

A: The approximate 10’ x 10’ room is beautifully constructed with river stones and built into the hillside.  The entire property is consecrated to Green Tara and the room has a powerful grounding energy.  There is a bed, a meditation platform, a chair, a sink, a shower and a compost toilet.

The toilet did smell a bit from time to time, but it was something that I got used to.  The shower provided hot water mid day when the solar panels heated up.  The entire property is off grid.

The room also has fresh air pumped in 24 hours to accommodate for oxygen usage.

Some other dark rooms in other places are more like regular retreat rooms that have had all the windows blacked out and all light sources eliminated.  I like the grounded earthy feeling of this room.

Q: Were you alone or were there others there or in other rooms?

A: I was alone.  They currently have one dark room on this property and it is designed for 1-2 people.  There is 1 bed.

Q: What prompted you to do this?